PillQuesting Bitches

Judy and Sarah went to the doctor's today, so I am now in charge of her medication, and maybe it won't get fucked up anymore... Methadone is a bitch of a drug. It has good uses, but the body craves it and it makes people physically sick when they withdraw. I think I can ween her down to get off it, but it is going to be a hard road. But when I married I made a commitment, and I will stand by it. On top of that, Sarah is addicted to them, just not as bad. Both girls are in pain, but they let the pain and pills to make it go away rule their lives, and force of will can do much of what they rely upon pills for.
But they are better when they work and live life around each other and together. I have more than enough love to stand by them as I help them heal themselves, and inside I know clearly that having both of them as loves and living like sister wives that the love I have inside of me and I can give will be so much more intense and I will have more to give.
Amanda came over today, and she has always looked sexy to me, but her pregnant is just such a turn on. I think she will do great in life, especially if or when she has a decent guy to be there for her. I'd love to be that guy. I think how and who we both are would work well, because there is a real friendship there, but we should be more connected. She needs a good place to be, and my door is open to her, and the elements she would bring in, as a lover/companion or just as a friend living here, would do wonders for both of us and everyone around us. She needs someone who is on her side and will never fuck her over, and that is me, and she would get close to Judy quick as well. She is mature on so many great levels, but she needs to be around love in a supportive environment.
I think we have a "sameness" in so many views, it couldn't help but be great. Modern society has so many shortcomings in how people are close and open with each other. That is a main reason why she needs what I can offer, that is no matter if she gets it from me or finds it somewhere else. I see her depressed sometimes and it hurts me, which is why I know how genuine my feeling are for her.
And Sarah maybe still feels guilty about all the things that have vanished, but it is life with Chris and pain, depression, desperation, and so much else that has fucked her up. Life with us would heal that as well, and does when she spends decent time here and not at the house where she lives with Chris. I refer to it that way, because that really isn't a home. It is a bad environment for those beautiful girls. Much of the attraction and desire for two wives farm is that desire in me to be father to and for them. And when Amanda has her baby girl I could be that as well. As time passes they both may move on if they are lovers and companions and sister wives, and that is just fine, because they would carry the love and what good gets created with them, and leave the same behind.
But I do think that if I can create this life I speak of with either or both of these beautiful women and my wife, who I love so much and want this for because it would do good for her as well, that none of them would ever seek to leave that life. If they did, what we create would be considered as "home" and be the safe place they always have to turn to. I have never turned from helping people in need, and right now we all need each other, even if I am the only one who sees it all so clearly.