Broken Dolls

Judy is depressed. Sarah is sad and depressed, and so is Amanda. I wish I could clone myself, take them all away, then have a couples orgy with all three couples...... I know, weird... right?
Yes, sex is always on my mind because the need for tenderness and passion is always there and so intense. Had John here for the holidays. He needs some real direction. I don't completely trust him so the important things that could grow legs are up.
At least I could give him a present and a good Christmas dinner, but until he makes some changes he is just so worthless. God intentions just don't cut it. And Amanda has Josh and Sarah has Chris, and me Judy. Maybe a full swap, Chris and Josh can have Judy, and I'll take Amanda and Sarah. Man would that be fun! Judy would bitch them into shape...maybe.
Josh won't be around for her baby, not in any real way anyway. Sarah's kids adore me more than their own worthless father, and I am great at the fatherhood thing.
I wish I could fix these girls. Time will heal things though.
Well, I'm exhausted....

I thought about some of my dreams. The dark thing was Jay dying. I saw in my last dream the Carolina farm, and saw Sarah's kids there as well. I also saw my living room greener and bigger. I saw Amanda bigger when I made love to her and she is pregnant. She just needs to stop fucking around with Josh. I saw myself making love to both her and Sarah, but not at the same time. I saw Amanda and me down on the beach at night. I saw Sarah by candlelight. I saw Amanda under starlight. I even see Judy becoming accepting that I want and need other women, and let's face it, that was no secret about me when she married me.
I wish I could clone myself.