Two wives on a farm... that is my dream at this point. I have found a farm in North Carolina for about $80K and would like to have Judy and Sarah on it as sister wives to me. I think that would work better than just Judy. In some ways I want to get away from Judy and in others I want to make it work. I have a lot invested to just throw it all away, but there are other needs I have she just doesn't fit or fill. Those needs aren't so much sexual, but emotional.
If I had to pick one woman to be with forever, in order, with all the women I've ever known, it would be either Julie or Amanda first, then Bethany (as I remember her, who knows what she's like now) or Sarah as third and fourth, then Judy, then Ginny...and Christine if she wasn't alcoholic and before life messed her up a little. My time with her healed her, but I don't want to be anyone's crutch. I want to be their equal and companion and partner. Lori would be up there as well, but her at 18, 19, not what she's like now. Two divorces have made her a little bit of a bitter bitch, and she isn't as carefree as when we were together. She told me I ruined her for other men because no one was ever as loving or genuine. It was cool to hear that I set a high standard, but sad to know she just hasn't been able to find it.
But I want this farm and I want more than one lifemate. I also wouldn't mind sharing a woman with Larry. I haven't had a male best friend like him in years, and I've tried to find him, but we missed contacting each other. His sister Ginny and I got really close, but she had a complicated life and so did I. It was weird sitting around smoking a joint, and this was back in 86, having spent the weekend with Ginny, camping and making love all weekend, then having the orgy on my boat with the girls and Larry. I guess I want the lifestyle I had on my boat or back when I was a third owner of The Owl and The Fiddler to a degree, but only this time have it on a farm and be more of a family thing... I like being a father, and want wives and loads of kids and to take care of everyone. I guess I am just tribal.
I wonder if Amanda could fit into that, and how cool it would be to have all three there, but I want that because of what the dynamics would be. I also think I am so intense and full of love and passion that I would short-circuit just one woman. I also think I want at least two wives because I need more than just Judy, and would be better to and for her if there was someone else to fill what she can't. I could give more of myself because I would be more complete. That might sound selfish, but the alternative is to be unhappy and unfulfilled, and not being then able to give my best because I was sad to a degree. Sarah would be more a lover-companion to me and friend-companion to Judy, and Amanda would be a friend-companion-lover to me and grow into a friend to Judy, and maybe be a lover-firend to Sarah, and Judy and Sarah being such close friends and companions would do good for each other if they had some private passion between them as well. Sarah wants that I think, at least she says so much, but Judy puts too much ownership on me in the wrong way. She is more concerned with needing to own my body than wanting to own my soul.
Two wives on a farm... that would work....